Sunday, April 17, 2005
yest had a great day man..haha..mornin was half aslp..den heard dad told sis tt they bringing my cousin go c doc 4 his eyes..sigh..den i was upset le..cos he was suppose 2 come @ ard 10..i noe if i told him..he sure upset n ya..sigh..n it did happen..aft tt he refuse 2 reply my msges..was veri upset le..lata called him when my parents left..he said he was aslp..oh man..haha..but lata we ok le la..haha..he agreed 2 come in e aftnoon..haha..i asked mum if he can come..surprisingly she allowed..!! thx mum..reali..yupx..den he came..we played..@ night my aunt treat us 2 swenses..!! haha..cos it was my cousin bday ma..hee..not bad..haha..so nice leh..sigh..I MISS HIM SO BADLY NOW..!! sobx..we went hm separatly..cos my dad fetch my ah ma n uncle hm..den my aunt scared no space in my dad car so she offered 2 send baby to e mrt station..sobx..so sad leh act can squeeze de..i dun mind..oh well..i miss him more n more..
tml start sch le..muz study veri hard 2 prove 2 my parents le..sigh..i scared if he cant make it..he will like tt day..haix..den some more dis time..its harder 2 meet up..haix..im so afraid now..so damn afraid..tt he'll leave mi..anyway he tml gonna apply into another course which he prefer..hope he can make it into poly though..den can spend more time le..yeah..I LOVE YOU BABY DEAREST..ALWAYS WILL..I PROMISE..!! gif us a chance 2 prove 2 every1 k? dun lose hope..we can do it de..yupx..stay by my side..
on a positive side..when we miss each other more..our love grow stronger..heex..I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY..
4:14pm
went thru frdster..look @ my sec sch frdx blogs..made mi realised how much i missed my sec sch frdx..even those i used 2 dislike or not close wif..i miss them..as some were once my frdx..it made mi realise how stupid n childish i was in sec sch..even till sec4..i've always been a coward..running away fr reality..n probs n troubles..i nv reali faced my fears..esp my fears of my parents..sigh..tt day chat wif xw jie..tt day i felt diff..like we not as close le..sigh..mayb im tinkin 2 much again..oh well..its ok..she is more bz nowadays..cant blame..
i didnt noe if i wld like acct course..but i made my choice..i'll 2 live thru it..but no matter wat..as long as i have him..mayb im foolish..n well..naive..but deep inside i believe if we both wan it..we both can make it thru e obstacles we face..n b a stronger couple or even as a person..
thinking of you @ 11:44 AM